Perfect Love Casts Out Fear...

It's been a long while since I last blogged. I was really busy every single day. Days seemed to pass by real fast when we are busy doing our own things.

Had a great CGM last Thursday and I think I need to pen it down for me to remember the encounter with God.

Recently, whenever pastor preached a great message during the weekend and gave an altarcall, I always asked myself, am I in the category that pastor is talking about. It seemed like, I am never in the stage that he is talking about. To put it simply, I am not in my UPS nor in my DOWNS. I don't go through trials or tribulations and I am not experiencing exciting great things in life as well. My life seemed to be on a standstill. There is a sense of helplessness in this meaningless life.

Last Thursday while we were worshiping God after the Word was shared, I was reminded of the feeling of walking in the will of God - time that my life was tough, challenging but yet I was positive and so full of faith and joy. Then as we knelt down in the presence of God, He began to surface that which had been hindering my Christian walk - FEAR. I had never knew that it was fear that was crippling me. Maybe subconsciously I do know that there was fear in me but I never really acknowledge/admit or do anything about it.

Since my great fall 3 years ago, I never really dared to love people as much as I used to. I am afraid of hurting others and myself. I am afraid to step out to try anything that has to do with God, which explains why I am still not in a ministry after so long.

After surfacing my fears, God told me to fear not for He is with me. What an assurance! How can I get rid of those fears in me and start loving people again? The Word of God says, "Perfect love casts out all fear." Only God is perfect and He is love. Only by loving Him and receiving His love will all my fear be gone. I want to try to love Him with all of my heart once again even though I had failed so many times. I want to try to love people more like how He has loved us. I want to be in the will of God again.